Thank goodness it's Friday

It has been quite a long week, and I'm feeling quite tired; though for some reason a am also feeling quite relaxed. I think that this may be something to do with my decision to avoid getting worked up about work - after all nobody else seems to care that much, so why should I kill myself because of it. I don't mean that I'm not bothered about doing my job well, I have too much self-respect for that. It's just that from now on I'm going to do it differently, and I'm not going to get wound up by people or events.

Why this sudden change, well, it dawned on me the other day that I just don't get paid enough for that amount of stress, and if this means that things don't get done - well there is only one of me and people are going to have to accept that.

Last night we had an SVP meeting and the reading on spirituality was very thought-provoking, it was one of those occasions when you hear something said in a way you have never heard before and something goes click and you see the World in a new way. This is part of the reading:

"We aspire to infinity, to God, and yet we are living in a finite time and space with the many constraints that brings. Our hearts are actually made for union with everybody, and to relate to everything, yet we cannot, on earth, experience more than a taste of what awaits us in the fullness of time. It is not surprising, therefore, that we experience an insatiable appetite for love, that we experience loneliness, that in our restlessness we may turn to alcohol or drugs. Our longing and yearning for a universal love is infinite and with the grace of God our capacity is infinite."

Somehow, though I've heard the same thing said in many different ways before, it never really struck home in the same way. Being a perfectionist this comes as something of a revelation; but I find it somehow freeing - life will never be perfect so just accept it for what it is and get on with it.

After SVP finished I went to play badminton, I have to say I played some of the best games I've ever played, though I was quite tired by the end and was flagging by the last game. Still overall I was very pleased with my performance and enjoyed myself immensely; it was also great exercise, I got very out of breath, which I don't usually.